curtain closing on the the third!

isn't it strange how you don't want to be wrong about people against your intuition?

here we go: the third round of "from-one-day-to-another".
FOR REAL?

wow is right.
i am in need of an overly loud coldplay concert,
a punching ball
a magical wand
a little peek into God's plan ...?...
a baseball bat that shuts up the lizard voice
a method that keeps people responsible
and holds them to their word despite life changes

FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!

dreams and Radler

dreams do a number on me four times out of five...
i woke up waiting for a call that i wasn't waiting for...
someone was getting murdered, i was in a city of ruins and not getting the call i wanted.

i bet i borrowed the someone that got murdered from "5 minutes of heaven". is not a romance by the way, but a movie about hope - at least off and on. i like movies that process possible life scenarios realistically. this one does. made me think of the 2cor kids. and anyone that makes mistakes while they're alive. and anyone that can't handle making mistakes very well (like any of us) and where time doesn't heal neccessarily.

luca has been listening to the little mermaid for probably three straight days...living in reality? not so much, but she is playing the story out creatively in all sorts of ways: with playmobil. we took a break today - there's imagination and breaks to dreaming. today it's reality :) and playing in water and sunshine in the yard is a good reality.

i'm spending zoo nap time watching Les Miserables. one of my favorite movies. makes me think of our friend-in-heaven Karen, why i love the kind of people i want to go back to work with - and what i have a long ways to go to.
how evil is constantly willfully disarmed in this movie is amazing. and how the refusal to give in to evil weighs heavy, because evil is not abolished, but left to deal with itself until it collapses - until finally there is peace.

in the end kind of waiting for a phone call,
enjoying the peace of Jax
and counting the days until i can have a Radler with friends in Germany.
YES!!!!

my own skin

was more in my own skin today - felt like i anyway:

to have german acquaintance-visitors
that felt at home in our diggs
.
and i felt at home talking
however my mouth grew (as the germans say)

refreshing and funny
talking about the different cultures...
how this makes sense here,
how that makes sense there...
and how nice it would be to
mix the american niceness and politeness
with the german candidness and honesty

where i feel o.k. the way i parent
because i know i'm not weird, i just parent more german :)

nice.
bye.
and thank you for a piece of that part of home.

not nature or "old man"

i'm liking this passage today - we talked about it in twocor staff meeting - and it's hard.


HE has told you,
O man,
what is good;
and what does the LORD require of you
but
to do justice,
and to love kindness,
and to walk humbly with your God?

Micah 6:8


that means i'm not rationalizing my actions,
because usually i'm not acting justly...

do i love kindness
or do i get more attention out of underlining
un
kindness

do i look up at God
as i stumble and walk along
or do i look at the ground grumbling
about how he does me wrong


humbly, my friend
take off your shoes and go in to see HIM
lay it down

you can throw the dice
but
they will fall where he wants them to

surrender